for all you ppl...

for those who wanna give up or are depressed...

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat, but always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed

Chorus: I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance
and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance,
I hope you dance, I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin’ might mean takin’ chances, but they're worth takin’
Lovin’ might be a mistake but it's worth makin’
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance,
I hope you dance (time is a wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance (rolling us along)
I hope you dance (tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder)
I hope you dance (where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance,


dance (hold for 2 4 counts), I hope you dance,
I hope you dance (time is wheel in constant motion always)
I hope you dance (rolling us along)
I hope you dance (tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder)
I hope you dance (where those years have gone)
(tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder)
(where those years have gone) I Hope You Dance - Ronan Keating

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now for those who are about to blow up cuz of tension and loads of pressure...

Took a ride to the end of the lane
Where no one ever goes.
Ended up on a broken train with nobody I know.
But the pain and the longing's the same.
When you're dying
Now I’m lost and I’m screaming for help alone.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can't do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

It’s as if I’m scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
It’s as if I'm scared.
It’s as if I’m playing with fire.
Scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
Are you scared?
Are we playing with fire?

Relax
(Love) There is an answer to the darkest times.
It’s clear we don’t understand it, but the last thing on my mind
Is to leave you.
I believe that we’re in this together.
Don’t scream – there are so many roads left.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can't do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can't do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.
[Relax, Take It Easy lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]


Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can't do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

Relax, take it easy
For there is nothing that we can't do.
Relax, take it easy
Blame it on me or blame it on you.

It’s as if I’m scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
It’s as if I'm scared.
It’s as if I’m playing with fire.
(Relax)
Scared.
It’s as if I’m terrified.
Are you scared?
Are we playing with fire?

Relax
Relax

[spoken:]

Same day I want to dress for wedding
Same day while i won't married
What happened, He's go meeted another girl
While he was married another girl, I was very very sad
I can talk like God take my legs
How he's made a different lady, I no believe.

After one month i am send out to balcony
Some bomb, come for my eyes. My eyes gone.
My eyes gone in bomb, now i have only one eyes.
I am sad, until now I no married any man after.

Relax, Take It Easy - Mika

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hahaha i dun even know if the lyrics make sense... but hey, they're dedicated to you guys. umm... even though u can't hear them?!?!

hahahaahahahaha

it's Christmas and everyone's depressed...

wrote at 6:53 AM
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emotions running high... i feel like laughing... and i dun know y

ooh... my title rhymes... anyway it is exactly how i feel as we draw closer to orientation 1 2008. here's my take on this...

first of all... involvement usually determines whether watever thing is happening is a high point or low point in our journey. but even the low points are high points when we turn our graphs of high and low points upside down as Mr Tan Jek Suan and Mr Leong so rightly pointed out. they are high points cuz it shows us that they are good opportunities to learn and to develop ourselves. right now... O1 2008 is at a low point for me. y? cuz my level of involvement is rather low right now. hopefully, i'll be more involved in O2 and during O1 itself. but tt's beside the point.

one thing tt struck me so far... was how much i really admire those who have so much to do but never complain. they dun keep it in either which is definitely unhealthy but rather, they are able to fully accept whatever they have to do... do it well and keep calm throughout. and that i know... is an extremely hard thing to do for most people... so kudos to ppl like matthias :)

if there was something i learnt from JC1 religion retreat, it wouldn't be tt there will be conflicts. i learnt tt a long time ago. it is tt we should ask for help when we need it and not only tt, but we should have faith in the ppl we work with and not to try to do everything no matter how much we want to. for the CAwingers, remember when i TRIED to organise the retreat events, Mr Pang and Mrs Leong had to remind me that i could and actually should split the CA to do seperate sections. i tried to be involved in all of the areas which made how we were doing things much less efficient. i wanted to do everything cuz i love stuff like planning for retreats (which is y i was also quite disappointed when i wasn't in O1 com). after that realisation hit me, we slit up to do the diff sections like morning praise, ice breakers and night reflection.

i forced myself to trust the ppl doing the other sections, checking up only once in a while and making sure everything was being coordinated properly. i didn't really have to. Clare did a wonderful job for icebreakers for example. i didn't need to worry. knowing when to step back, accepting tt some things are out of our control, trusting the ppl we work with and of course doing the best we can for the things tt are within our control. Most importantly, especially as a CAwinger, i gotta believe tt God has planned for all of this to happen for a reason. whether i can comprehend it or not.

another thing i learned in SJI in an RME lesson... yes... believe it or not... i learned something... Friar Mike asked us wat were our addictions. Ppl gave commonplace answers that were no brainers but Robindro (if i remember correctly) replied... SELF PITY. Addiction to self pity... boy tt was new. i never thought of addictions like THAT. for those who knew me last time... i used to complain a lot... wah so many things to do or watever shit. so poor thing... have to blah blah blah... i thought about it... and i hated tt part of myself. i jus wanted the attention or to use all the things tt i needed to do make myself seem more useful, to hide insecurities etc. tt was SUPERficial. i made a resolution not to dwell in self pity tt night and i've been trying ever since. i've fallen a few times since then although noticeably less that usual and for tt i'm proud of myself.

i still have much more to learn from the ppl involved in O1, committee or not, facil or not, teachers or students, participants or 'in charge's. i'm gonna make O1 a high point... i promise myself and God with us tt this Christmas.

Pray for me? All of you are in my prayers too :) especially those who are feeling the pressures the orientation brings to many.

PS: i still feel like laughing... i bet God is too as He watches all of us struggling so hard when all we have to do is turn to Him for help. :)

wrote at 8:52 PM
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overdue-r?!?

k tis more overdue...
part (b) of wat i did during holidays...
would love to put photos but sian... so here's ten...
Sydney Opera House

Love the Light

woah... looks good right?

sis & myself

small entrance to real bedroom... serious. damn cool house

officially my fav bird (sorry bert, it's not u although i see similarities hehe, oh it's called frog mouth or sumthing like that)

double rainbow

okay...

sand dunes

love the lighting again


that was australia
oh yeah... they shopped a lot... and so i finished 5 books by the way...
the new mitch albom book (forgot the name oops), Under the eagle (rome about to conquer britain and stuff, historical fiction, bloody, bloody vulgar and funny, and vivid, interesting lol), a star wars book bout the rise of a dark lord Darth Bane (damn cool!! gave up looking for it in singapore 2 years ago), 2 more star wars books on the Old Republic (one on Anakin, the other Obi Wan).
Highlights?
Sandboarding and the jet boat hahaha YEAH!!
oh, btw i got a few of those random semi precious stones
it was damn cool. one said relieves eczema! i was shocked lol. it's fate man

PS: GRACE!! SORRY FOR CALLING YOU WHAT I CALLED YOU IN AUSTRALIA!! I WAS JUST Really PISSED AT THAT TIME!! SORRY, :( really. IT SUCKED SERIOUSLY, we hadn't fought in ages and i spoilt a perfectly nice stay at such a nice house... X(

now part (c) church retreat
it was the best ppl! i couldn't go for YISS cuz of australia but heck, this was fun and meaningful. and boy do the games make the cjc dirty orientation games look clean. hehe.
anyway, i dun have the photos so too bad... anyway, i loved the Reconciliation part, the Confession and the outpouring (not downpouring lol, it was downpouring outside then though hahaha) session. Cool... so tt's how resting in the spirit is like. Plus hearing all the testimonials ,made it even more beautiful... sharing was damn funny... some mental and physical spasms... seriously... no seriously *hand jerking up* lol. Sorry, i must sound like i've gone nuts... only those there would know wat i was talking bout.

sacrament: an outward sign of inward graces (i dun ever remember learning tt in cat class and now it seems so beautiful, meaningful...)

oh yeah, jus had follow up session on sun, cool.

"When He calls you... It is for you to DIE"

whole lot of meaning in that and it really struck me... think bout it whoever's reading my blog, i won't treat you like an idiot.


part (d) (almost the end)
Council retreat... fun, interesting, bonding time with councilors i guess... i only have a few photos. Games were dirty but not as disgusting as the one at church retreat.

sorry Kai Chuen, Guan Wen and Clare especially hehe...

BBQ

sji got flying turban... here we have flying team cjc shirt (sorry menveer!! joking only)

footprints

winning group photo, courtesy of marie and her cam


\we had a BBQ btw if you hadn't noticed

wrote at 6:48 AM
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Overdue

Wat i did this holiday
a)OCIP India: Tamil Nadu (14th-22nd Nov)
b)Sydney Trip (29th Nov - 8th Dec)
c)SFX Youth Retreat (14th-16th Dec)
d)Council Retreat (18th-20th Dec)
Haven't touched HW yet
Some mass dance practises
Lots of thinking
Nothing
Dirge of Cerberus (omg...)
Heroes of Might & Magic V (omg... i dun believe this...)
Knights of the Old Republic (OMG... I DUN BELIEVE THIS...)
again... not yet start studies


PART (a)
Too many photos to post all but... here's a few...





































It was great and i kinda miss India now (curious rite? considering so many ppl getting sick). craps... i want to type bout the experience but so much to say... so... the only thing i can say is go India YOURSELF. I learnt a lot and was reminded a lot of SJI by the La Salle Brothers there, to be men of service. And loads of other stuff too.

wah... it's late already and still only finished part (a). To be cont'd... another time... IT"S NOT LAZINESS! IT'S PROCRASTINATION... lol

wrote at 5:09 AM
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