TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; 5
Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that, the passing there Had worn them really about the same, 10
And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I marked the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way I doubted if I should ever come back. 15
I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I, I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. 20
Saw this on Hansel's blog. I remembered lit class in sec 4. I love this poem. A lot. I live by it. I'm so the type of person who will do things precisely because most others don't want to. I love the idea of being unique, but also the idea that we are all the same in our unique-ness. I like the little differences each of us has, although sometimes I am really irritated by those who can't, yes, even if it is that that makes them different from me which is not really different actually considering I get irritated that they are different from me which they are actually not etc. See where I'm going?
No? Good, cuz me neither. You must be nuts if you understood that.
As I said, I love doing what others don't. Although, there is a sacrifice involved in that too. I won't say what but trust me on that. Sometimes, going down the other path seems so much easier. To do that however means I have to turn back along the path I chose. Mind you I chose the path I chose, but that does not mean I know where I am going. I'm still wandering around, just that I felt the urge to go down the path with the least footprints. What awaits me at the end of the road? I hope it's finding why I'm here now I guess, I don't know what of course.
Will I be a better person?
I was supposed to end off now... until another thought came into my head.
I like to think of myself as a reflective person. Of course that isn't always good. Especially if you can NEVER stop thinking about certain things you want to forget. Or if something goes wrong, I'll mull over it till kingdom come or till somebody hits me in the head (and I probably wouldn't even notice someone hit me).
Now for the people who know... (umm, I think that only includes Mat and Bert) I'm so over it, but I certainly can't help thinking what might have been. That sucks, even though I knew it had to be that way.
Orientation certainly was a turning point. At least for me.
Oh yeah, IG outing tmr!!! Hui Min pang seh... although it's not her choice.
Legion outing was fun. We practically swarmed magic wok at Novena today. Should be around 30+ ppl who went and I'm proud to say many CJCians :) Of course I was even prouder that all there were Josephian Legionaries who felt that even after graduation, the times we shared together meant something. Happy birthday to the new ancients Melvin and Hansel, ancient Joshua, more ancient-er Eugene, and ancient-est Edmond.
Heard Jason's doing Science Research thing (H3), congrats dude.
Oh yeah. Another thing. I'm so really excited and nervous. I got shortlisted for the SPF Book Prize thing and I now have to go for some interview. I've been keeping all these emotions in ever since I got the sms (as much that is possible that is), the main reason being I didn't know how to share it with others without sounding like I'm 'suaning' others or trying to make others feel jealous. Which I really hope not to do. I hope to get it, but I hate interviews. I really SUCK at them. Why? Perhaps because I end up talking a whole lot of nonsense without answering the question especially if I am asked "Why do you think you should________________?" It's so darn ego to answer that question and I really dislike having to 'sell' oneself to others. Ideally, they should just see for themselves whether I deserve it or not but of course that's not in the closest feasible.
That's not to say I'm not honoured to have even reached to this point and looking back at how I used to be like in Primary and Secondary School (sec 1 and 2 that is), I do believe I've come a long way. It might not seem like it, but I do have a thirst for knowledge. What type of knowledge? That's a different matter.
Congrats sis for Os. You might not have done as well as you hoped to for it I guess but I'm still really proud of you. You did beat me in terms of breakdown of scores if that's any consolation. :) LOL. There's always As to thrash me hehe.
I have something else on my mind but it's totally private this one. No one ask me please. I just had to say but I can't go into more details. It's not my place to say anything.
SJI campfire was wow. Definitely less people from my batch came to see, but still quite a number. The secondary 1s looked SO small, but they really enjoyed themselves. I still remember being a PSF in secondary 4 very vividly. I miss that feeling.
Still thinking of something for Lenten Vigil. I need to come up with a proposal with Nad and Frips. I'm a 1st water then 2nd fire person. The fire part of me... when will it ignite? I sometimes get those sudden inspirations, sudden creative sparks (at least I like to think so). Like those when I am struck by various things (not literally struck). This is NOT one of those moments. Where's Mr Pang when you need him? LOL.
Lately the only thing that struck me was this...
"God chose to create us without OUR help, He however chose to save us with OUR help."
Let that be something for you (whoever's reading this, duh) to ponder on too for this upcoming season of lent. And with that, I end my post.
1-2 weeks has passed since Orientation 1 2008 Fervour. It was good, love IG04 and 1T04. Enjoyed facilitating with Hui Min, being part of Ole. Don't know y ppl like being game masters though. It's SO NOT FUN. I'd rather be with my IG and my class. Btw, i jus posted 4 vids on Youtube. One mass dance one which is NOT from finale night (cuz i dance on finale night, so i couldn't have videoed it duh) and one's the house intros. I was from Ole house and since i helped with intro... i couldn't vid Ole house intro (sad right?). The other one's a task IG04 did. Funny though i only caught the last part, couldn't find my phone to take vid earlier.Final one is facil skit on finale night :)
Anyway, i couldn't get a photo with 1t04 (you guys disappeared too fast after finale) but i did get 2 with IG04.
Here are some photos...
Hope everyone enjoyed it, especially J1s.
Oh yeah, damn cool. I see so many legion ppl in CJC!! YEAH!! TT's the spirit guys.
Now back in school again. Volunteered for O2 2008 assistant ic for log. (didn't want oic cuz CA will hav loads of stuff to do) OCIP ppl have to do something for rockafella. Rockafella AUDITION JUDGE YEAH!!! Actually, Liselle, Anthea, Arthur, Daryl and i wanted to try for rockafella and we chose 2 songs - Clouds by Marty Casey and Here Is Gone by Goo Goo Dolls. (we couldn't hav played Bohemian Rhapsody OR Slither of course) We were quite noobs. Tt meant however, we couldn't be judges. In the end, we figured judging would be more fun than trying out for rockafella and NOT getting in. Good luck all bands trying out!
HW, tests coming up... usual stuff although the new timetable WITHOUT CHINESE rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cornerstone running through our aims and purpose again. I pray we are able to find it with His guidance. Oh yeah, had tt youth forum thing last week.
james joshua yap
21st march 1990
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334 '05
434 '06
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1t27
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1t14
saint gabriel's primary school
saint joseph's instituition
catholic junior college
legion of mary: QOAS
church of saint francis xavier
student council, guitar, shs
